I need some headway
to figure out
What I’m out to do

I need the fire
The passion to burn
The passion to move…
     The passion to feel…
         The passion to do…

Give me a reason
to really want to move on
to stay in motion

I feel so lost
like a boat
w/o a compass in the ocean

Help me find it
the light inside me
to make me happy
  to make me happy
    to make me happy…

I see the others
Who have found their
 niche to claim

I’m happy for them
but I seem to
Not feel the same

I need to find it
That very something
The thing to want…
    the thing to need…
       the thing to cling to…

Am I just drifting
Hope to be
not cast aside?

I tire of searching
through the world
far and wide

My world’s a bubble
I need a place
Somewhere to breathe
   somewhere to stretch
     somewhere to think…

I have a tune in my head that may work with this…perhaps I should try it out on  paper or something…hmmm

Mercuryami (c) 2011

Mercuryami over and out

I’ll try to keep up with it a little better.

In other news–my throat’s sore, and I’ve been making KH heartless…

mercuryami over and out

In office news: we had the fish tank cleaned, and I’m wondering what’s going on with the fish. We’re not sure if they’re dead. Earlier, they seemed semi-paralyzed and/or confused. Swimming mostly upside-down, and then they’d perk up and correct themselves a few seconds, then resume the topsy-turvy position. And it’s not like it’s one or 2, it’s more like all but 2 are like this. I’m thinking the worst, since I can smell fish–which doesn’t happen this long after a cleaning. I think I may try to stir them up a little to see if they’ll fight back.

Until next time, readers

Mercuryami over and out

Update:
All of the fish except for one angelfish (which may not last long) have died…Even the Pleco (Algae-eater)–and those are practically unstoppable–was dead on its back on the gravel. The fish guys say that the angelfish may have a few hours left at best.. It looks sad, alone near the corner and breathing a little fast… *sigh* only time will tell.

I was playing video games on the Wii with a few people and I got competitive. One of my friends said that I looked very scary, but she didn’t know how to describe it…

It’s been a while since I’ve heard something like that, about my being scary…but I think the last time that happened was also through gaming…Could it be that  my eyes give off an inferno of determination or something? Enough to give an overbearing, fear-inducing aura?…Though I must say, I fear I look pretty lanky when I’m flailing with a Wii-mote

mercuryami over and out

And once I’m done with this—I’ll be ready to make a new plushie–I won’t make anything yarn related until I finish this.

Also, tomorrow I’ll be teaching a colleague how to crochet :3…at least, how to do the basics. lol

It must be lonely on that shelf
collecting dust as you gain age.
You might say and do as you please
But you fear to lose your wage.

Those cameras must be hot
Those lights must be too bright
Those fans must bust your ear–drums
They all might love your work
You may laud their applause, but
Who’s under whose…thumbs

It must be tough to be on top,
To have them all scream out your name,
Just one touch could make them senseless
Your skill puts them to shame.

Watch them from your pedestal
They watch you from the crowds
They watch you fly and fall
That crowd is like an ocean
Lapping up to touch your feet
You hope that you don’t drown

You hope that you don’t drown

It must be tough to be on top,
I can’t imagine why,
They want to be like you
They just don’t know your pride.

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This is the work of me, Mercuryami—slightly unfinished…*shrug*

That’s gonna be tough.

over and out

In other “news”–why is it so hard to log in to my youtube? oh right, I got something google based and it liked them…maybe I should unlink them and things will be simple again. Ha…I’ll give it more thought

And I need to visit the guys at Sahdow’s work….and draw….and finish the chainmaile bracelets/necklaces…and the crochet stuff….and study…. *hangs head down* spoot!!

36/83 yellow (I have to buy more yarn :\ Pity that the skeins are small)
0/74 black  (gotta get started)
0/1 red (’nuff said)
11/11 brown—might use a different shade if I ever try to do this again…*sigh* at least one color’s done

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Also, the other day I made a coworker an early birthday gift—a cozy for her new phone–looks like a stocking–brown and white striped. She likes it–thank goodness. Took about 3 hours or so.

 Still trying to get used to this…place